I just want to scream. I want to stand outside and scream until I lose my voice. I don’t have a reason other then I feel I need to and I’m holding it in because I can’t. I want to scream but I must remain silent because nothing is wrong.
I totally didn’t make a video to show my teacher the struggle I went through to e-mail him my homework. Nope did not do that so him and my class could laugh about how bad my computer things are with my home internet at the moment…nope that did not happen.
straight boys think girls can’t take compliments, and that’s ridiculous cause i’ve seen so many girls compliment each other, i’ve seen conversations & friendships blossom from girls complimenting each other in line, on the street, at school waiting for the bys, pretty much anywhere.
the problem is straight boys think sexual harassment & assault are compliments.
I might get to go shopping with my dad tomorrow and that would be very great. I’m not feeling as shitty as I was before so being out and around people shouldn’t make me feel week or get anyone else sick. I’ll be looking for the things I need for Sai and Aoba and maybe new boots for Armin. Then after that if I get home early enough I’ll cut my Sai wig and get pictures of that.
BLACK = I would date you. GREEN = I think you’re cute. BLUE = You are my tumblr crush. GREY = I wish you would notice me. PURPLE = I don’t talk to you but I really love your blog. TEAL = We have a lot in common. YELLOW = FUCK ME. ORANGE = I don’t like your blog. BROWN = I don’t like you. PINK = I think you are unattractive. RED = I hate you with a burning passion. WHITE = MARRY ME. NONE: nobody likes you
I know this is a think I’m always complaining about but I need a place to wright down how a feel before it causes any more distress from keeping it in because I don’t want to bother friends with it. I just really want to find someone and be in a romantic relationship. No one that I have an interest in returns those feelings and I can’t change that. I’m craving being with someone and being able to be very loving to them and be able to feel loved back. I haven’t been in a relationship for over a year and I haven’t been on a date since 2012 and it’s been a very long time since I’ve gotten to kiss anyone. So yes maybe I’m just lonely and need to shut up about it. And adding that I’m demisexual to this mix doesn’t help with the dating thing but I need that connection and trust that being friends for quite some time give before I feel safe to go on dates with said person. I just wish that I could make that connection with someone.